"I’ve always been out of step with the people around me. In the end I’d left it so late that I gave up. I told myself I was all about the mind — and people found me odd. I grated on them; I could see it in their eyes. Rather than change I — I started playing a role, more and more. I didn’t need anyone. That’s what I told myself: I didn’t want anyone.
Did you imagine you’d spend the rest of your life alone?
Yes.
I can’t begin to understand what that must feel like.
You always knew you’d find someone?
Always.
I can’t imagine what that must feel like."
- uit London Spy (BBC series)
